[260] Immersion


I thought that I
Could erase all the pain
By diving deeper in
And making myself numb
To it.

I tried so hard
To push so far
By breaking boundaries
And pushing, breaking
Through it.

But it broke me,
Just made me sicker still.
I found myself at your feet again,
Ever feeling helpless that I could not
Do it.

You wish that I would start
To show myself respect
Equivalent to that
Of what I preach for all.
Let myself be a part,
Not give my needs neglect
And so no longer sat,
I rise from where I fall.