[321] Enough

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It’s never enough,
It being no more than I.
I am not

Stop this thought.
Again I’ve caught
This habitual action
Made without ration
Or even awareness,
Despite its unfairness.
Pervading, insisting,
Invading, resisting,
Evading, existing,
On and on, and how
Have I not figured out
A way by now
To work about
This mental block,
This selfish pain,
Long past the shock,
Long past what’s sane,
Long past my will,
My sense, my faith,
For none are ever
Strong enough and
I am never strong enough and
I am not

It’s been twenty-three minutes
And somehow it feels like
Much more and much less;
It feels like anything but
What it should be. Never enough
Or far too much. Always running out
Yet wasting ever more. And I
Can feel
The fail
And fear
Its fall
All from
All that I can’t achieve.
What have I accomplished?
Anything is
Reduced to nothing because I
Could have made it– should have made it
So much more. It’s not enough,
Never enough, a ceaseless wheel,
An endless spiel, but nothing real
Worth being seen,
And as one who’s
Defined by such
It’s only fair
That I assume:
I am not

Cease.
Please,
Let go of your hold on me?
You’re holding onto yourself.
Does that really matter much?
It seems so; you talk to yourself.
What if you’re my only crutch?
Maybe you must hold onto yourself.
What if I’ve nothing left to clutch?
Will you just hold on and listen to yourself.
But what if I’ve nothing to say?
Why should I listen, anyway?
What is there for me to hear?
What does it matter?
Why should I care?
Why should I believe you anymore? Me, anymore?
It’s never been enough. I can’t, I cannot;
I am not

I have had ENOUGH.

You will never make yourself happy this way!
Yet forever here, you choose to stay,
And in this way, evade real change!
Why not you then, if I may,
Try not to be enough
But try to be
Better?

I

Let it sit with you, awhile;
We’ve nowhere else to go, anyway.

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[55] Horror

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RUN
Don’t question this
They’re coming now
You’ve lost your way
You’ve lost your mind
Don’t look behind
Just RUN
Don’t mind the fall
Get up
Don’t stall
Your prayers pursuers race
They’re keeping pace
No time
To worry
Just hurry
Away
RUN
GET AWAY
FROM THE HORROR
YOU’RE TIED TO

You can’t escape yourself