[Over and ] (Repeat Indefinitely)

I wish you knew–

No, I wish I knew.

I wish I knew who to be.

I don’t, oh well.

I should be happy now.

I’m sorry about that.

I should have never fallen in love.

I wish I could take things back.

And that idea in itself is a hurtful one to me.

Should I have never loved at all?

I wish you kne–

I wish I kn–

I don’t..

I see the cycle coming to a second closing.

I’m going to lose you again.

We both know I deserve it.

To be abandoned.

Maybe I can break the cycle if instead,

Although this idea is a hurtful one to me,

I push you away first.

I’ve lost

It

Entirely.

Do you see?

Get

Away

From me.

I love you.

I hate me.

Save yourself now and let me be the despair I am.

Just let me go– no,

I need to let go– no,

I don’t want to let go– though,

It doesn’t matter what I do.

You don’t love me.

You don’t like me.

I am hell.

I want to save it.

I want to

I want

 

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