Crimson Reflection

She didn’t realize
How much
Everything hurt
Until the blood
Was everywhere
And she was trying
To stop it
But it just kept
Coming on
Just like him
Just like him
He kept
Coming on
Even
If it
Was
Years
Ago
She
Still
Felt
Him
Coming on.

Crimson drops,
Streaming down,
Frantic heart,
Useless tears,
A promise
To herself
That she knows
She will break
To never do this
Again.

She tells herself, one last time,
How she’ll never feel love again.
Not because no one loves her,
But because she could never open up like that
To anyone
Ever again.

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Forever Loveless

Two souls living
Together, from the start
Together, they are the universe,
Could never live apart…

One is light; one is dark;
They share a bonded heart.
But…

There… is… no…

Balance…

No…

I love you, light. And everyone loves you. And I’m very happy they do.

And I know you love me too.

But does anyone else? They’re all so afraid… I don’t want to be the source of their fears, and the cause of their nightmares… I don’t want to hurt them… I’m so sorry…

…I… am the darkness…
Forever… loveless.

A thought to myself

A thought to myself.
I don’t want to make one aloud,
But I feel that way again.
Curse the tides of the yearly cycle;
Why do they have to bring me
Back to this place again?

Why do I have to
Have a body at all?
Can’t I float away
As an essence itself?
I can think alone
Without distraction.
And there’d be
No seasons
To fall in.

Materials– no, people
Divide me. I don’t know
Who I am around them.
But it isn’t me, because
I appear to you as something,
And if I appear as anything,
It is a horrible inaccuracy,
As I am nothing.

I have no name,
I have no gender,
I have no love,
I have no sexuality,
I have no time,
I have no thoughts that feel original, that don’t make me feel like I’m constantly trapped in the same cycle, never to really learn from my mistakes, never to escape the horrors I keep casting upon myself, never to live beyond these walls I fabricate in my mind, never to see your face again, never to touch you, to hold your hand, to be with you, never to know what it’s liked to be loved again, never to be honestly comfortable around anyone, and what did I do? Oh yes, I remember now.

You want me to let go of regrets.
I regret this existence.
~

A Beginning (Or Just Another Big Change)

Finn from Finnished With it All, and I, are collaborating on a new project, Elemental Progression. It’s our form of a New Year’s resolution! If you’re interested, please take a look! We’ll be updating regularly.

Elemental Progression

Hi! I’m Finn, and I’m an American sophomore with roots in Finland. I love writing, but as time progresses, my time is taken up more and more by school and my new passion (speech and debate).

Hello, I am Kaprekar. I’m a storyteller, high school student, and full-time music and mathematics enthusiast. I wish to change the world through art in all mediums.

Welcome to Elemental Progression! This is a journal-type blog run us two storytellers. Each of us have our own individual blog where we post short stories, poetry, and other little things. However, this project is aside from all of that. The idea is all in the name.

I am Kaprekar, the author of Cryptic Dreams. Months ago, I came up with a spiritual elemental system revolving around the different parts of the physical and mental world. In layman’s terms, these elements are simply a set…

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