They push me down.
They tell me that if I was really sorry, I wouldn’t have done it again.
They tell me that I just want attention.
They tell me all the things
That moments before
They spent so much effort
Trying to get me
Not to believe.
Who do you trust
If everyone who wants your trust
Decides shortly later that their trust
Cannot be placed in you?
Every day, what I ask for
Becomes less and less
Because every day, fate hammers down my expectations
Every day, the world oppresses me further, but
I promised long ago that I wouldn’t stop trying,
So I keep accepting punishment after punishment
For the sake of a promise to someone who doesn’t care.
If they want nothing to do with me,
Why do they stay?
Why do they continue to watch?
Do they want to see me fall apart?
All I’m asking for
Is for this